Comfort in my bed

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Hi, everyone, I hope you are all having a wonderful day! today I want to touch upon motivation and the act of getting up out of bed. it's been a long road for me with my motivation and the fear of something awful happening to me the second I walk out of my sanctuary, aka my room, but this week has been particularly hard. I'm not sure if any of you guys reading this have ever experienced a lack of motivation to get up and start the day or even go outside. I'm having a lot of trouble with that, and that's okay because I'm acknowledging it, and I'm doing the things I should be doing. 

right now, I'm trying to go on a walk, hike, or do something active every day, but I'm not active enough because my job is all online and on the computer. I think I'm just getting into the habit of waking up, pulling my computer before even brushing my teeth, and just working in bed. today, I didn't go outside until about 4:00 p.m., and I had so much exhaustion hanging over my head. I think that might be part of why I dread getting out of bed sometimes because I know I will just be tired and want to go back to bed and crave the comfort of my safe space.

 I think my bed became my safe space Last Summer when I had a mental breakdown. and not your regular let me just bawl for an hour, having a rough week mental breakdown, like full-blown therapy going four times a week mental breakdown. since I don't live at home during the school year, I think that when I do go home, I'm just excited to be in the one constant place. Everything in my life changes constantly, and that's hard for me. Maybe I've changed my room over the years and added decorations, but it's the same space that's been through everything with me.

 I appreciate you all bearing with me while I get my emotions out because this wasn't a how-to or even impactful to any of you in any way this is purely just me getting my emotions out. Anyway, if you've experienced this and the same way or similar ways reach out to me comment below and we can talk. 

xoxo,

ella