bad days and panic attacks

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hello everyone, I hope you are all having a wonderful day. I’m gonna cut to the point and be completely transparent with everyone when I say that I’m having a hard night, I'm having a hard day. I didn’t get up at all today. I stayed in my pajamas, even fully brush my teeth. I had probably three popsicles, some ice cream and pizza. I got no exercise, which I haven’t been getting lately because of my lack of motivation. and tonight, just now, I had a panic attack. If you’ve ever experienced a panic attack, you know it feels like your mind is spinning while your heart is racing. It feels like that game you play when you’re younger you try to rub your belly and pat your head at the same time, but like so much worse. What caused the pain was my fear of change and talking with my boyfriend about this upcoming school year, realizing that nothing is going to be the same. I’m gonna have to make some friends other than the ones that I have now, because they’re all gonna graduate this year. I’m probably gonna be living in a different dorm, which doesn’t really seem like a big deal, but to me, it’s a huge deal. The place I live and the place i call home is a huge deal to me. Thank goodness I had my boyfriend call to remind me to breathe because I kept forgetting. I wish I could tell you I have life altering techniques that have helped me get through many panic attacks over my life, but I can’t. I’m not sure of the answer to this one. Obviously I breathe and I put my hand on my chest to remind myself that my heart can take a breather, but that’s about it. If you know of any techniques on how to handle a panic attack, please reach out to me. I would really love to talk. I will also do research on this and get back to you all. Thank you for listening to me ramble, I hope everyone has a wonderful night.

xoxo,

ella